Tamat Sudah Hari Ahad~

Thanx syg 4 today... I really enjoy myself together wit u... Yesterday when i told my dad that i wanna go out tomorrow(today) with Afif, he said.."Kua lgi?(smbil snyum2)..Dia ade kt sni ke?Asyik dating jeee...(sengih2 n gelak)"...i replied,"Aaa..die kim slm kt abh..lupe nk bg tawu..die swuh bg tawu abh yg die nk bwk kua esok..hehehe"...and..suddenly,"ahah..swuh die call abh.."..haha..we laughed together..and bcause of sifat 'tak menahan'..i juz straight away call him n told bout it..=)

Pagi2 lagi da pening nak muntah sbb ramai org..then period pain..haihh..(sbr ye AfiQa)..tapi..happy sgt bile.....

#jd antara org terawal line up utk beli tiket cinema...-thumbs up to Ghost of Past Girlfrend...and sorry to GI JOE...heee~

#menang!! sbb da 2 kali org tu smpai lmbt...lalalala~

#breakfast di McD..(again!) =p

#Minoshe,Xixili,Women Secret & La Senza session...(At Laz...ade La Senza member card!! And i really want the 'RM 139 sleepwear',,so cntik kn?)

#And thnx 4 a new Voir Excutive..seriously,i like it..(he said:maybe i terpengaruh dgn my mum..die suke baju2 cmni..casual wear)..=)

#SoooOooo degill!! u cnt eat prawn but u mkn jgk..I'll tell Abang Noodle Station supaya transferkn udang dlm my springy tomyam..(abang??lalalala~=p)

#I love the '2 Scoops & 2 toppings' at Haagen Dazs...*wink*

#And...nasib baik xbeli stone necklace yg ntah ape2 tu..haihhh...

#when it comes to all those sweet moments...=)

Thnx again...luv u so much..see u when i see u soon..

I do!

Ya Allah....

You are my Lord...

The Creator of the whole on the earth and heaven..

Yet beyond man's thought..

I...hv..

I...wish..

(even I do ask You a lots before this)...

Forgive me...

Yes, I do love him...

Yet I miss him soOo much now..

O'Lord...

What should I do...

Where should I start..

Please..

Give me strength to stand..

O'Lord...

Spread love & patient in our heart...

Give us both..

Trust and meaningful life...

Lord...

Again..

I wish everything will be as usual...

Hope I'll be okay and strong enough..

Forgive me & remind me if I fall into error...

Aminn....

O Lord~

....O my Lord...Most Gracious & Most Merciful.....

Our Lord! Punish us not if we forget or fall into error,Our Lord!

Lay not on us a burden like that which YOU did lay on those before us ; Our Lord!

Put not on us a burden greater that we have strength to bear.

Pardon us and grant us forgiveness.

Have mercy on us. You are our Maula and give us victory over the disbelieveing people.

Our Lord! Let not our hearts deviate (from the truth) after you have guided us, and grant us mercy from you.

Truly, you are he bestower.

Aminn...

Stay The Same...

Don't you ever wish you were someone else

You were meant to be the way you are exactly

Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are

When you love to learn yourself, you're better off by far

And I hope you always stay the same

Cuz there's nothing bout you I would change

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I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be

If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside

Don't be afraid if you've got something to say

Just open up your heart and let it show you the way

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Believe in yourself

Reach down inside

The love you find will set you free

Believe in yourself, you will come alive

Have faith in what you do

You'll make it through

I Catch The Rainbow~

"See!! That's a rainbow!! So beautiful!!"..............yea..such a beautiful creation by The Creator..everybody will say the same thing i think..but no one hv reached there yet touch it.. =) Thanx Ya Allah, i'm still alive till now..

I like the colors...so harmony...cheerful!! Before it exist, there will be rain,water that falls from the sky in separate drops... Then we can see a curved band of different colors that appears in the sky when the sun shines through rain... So Wonderful is it?

Hurmmm... Yea..

I miss the sun..

I miss the rainbow. .

I miss the drops of water..

falling on my head..

my face...

my hand...

........................................

Stand still..

In a rainy day..

Cool outside..

Cold inside..

And the lips..

Turn blue..

And i still stand..

numb~

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Keep thinking..

Will I have a chance to see the rainbow..

once again..

I breath deeply..

Looking down..

I know..

Soon, He'll call me..

Back to Him..

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It's raining heavily..

And I still stand..

I know the time already comes...

The skin tells everything..

The lips create a last smile..

The eyes close slowly..

And...

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The rain stop..

and it's too late..

The rain wipe off her tears..

She totally missed her rainbow..

for the last..

And no one notice..

Long Distance??

Just wake up frm 2 1/2-hours of sleeping beauty [not soo beauty..ahah!]..not-a-really-called-sleep...because...i can't sleep actually.. Then, opened my eyes...i saw..oh..Catdog at my tv's screen..watch dat crtoon for awhile..n i went to d bathroom...in 5.20,out 6.10 p.m...refill my shower cream..berus lantai bilik air...and take a bath..as usual..syampoo and so on...it takes time..haihh..juz keep quite..listen to the sound of water flow from top of my head..ears and..till to the floor..and still...i kept thinking...why...how..what shud i do..etc...

I got another post b4...bout 14th of June...emmm...and juz put aside 4 awhile..soon i'll go through again n publish...Long Distance..dat's LD m talking about...yea..as my fwenz said b4..."jauh2 ni ssah..dugaan byk...kte tawu kte cmne..but dorg?" 4 me...sume mnde ade risk...even dkat pun ade..xsmestinye jauh je....it depends on dat person himself/herself..boleh fkir yg mne baik..yg mne buruk...long term effects..short term effects...

Others fwenz said.."yg penting hati kite...if kte da stick kt sumbody,da syg sgt....dtg laa bape rmai skali pun..xkan punye..insyaAllah"...ya..mmg laa..tp..if 1 side je punn..xgune...sblm ni pun 1 side jgk ..[cisss..knp ku perlu igt..da jnji ngn Mnje xnk igt..] ...if long distance...sumtimes..jarak tu mngukuhkan lg relationship...=) if meretak kn relation tu...no comment laa...sndri cari msalah...kalo x pun...partner yg start wat hal dlu...[ohhh...hope x]..

Yg sorg lg ni ckp.."ko jgn syg org tu sgt2..sbb nnt if die tggl kn ko..merapu ko siang mlm nnt..pmpn slalu cmtu..." huhu~complicated nyee....xtawu nk ckp ape...hee~ eh..da mngarut da..spatutnye ckp psl 'Long Distance'...

But..i still rmember wht 1 of my fwenz said..."Don't talk about 'long distance' if u never experience it.."...em..btul jgk and ayat tu sgt mndalam...pnuh dgn kesabaran,tabah,etc...=)

k laa..da mghrib da pun..hmm...I juz want to say.."My dear Afif...I knw I can..If I can't,I wont take d risk.."

14th Of June 2009~

To have sum1 special in our life is a precious gift dat we cnt dscribe hw is d feeling..even a word...it's not juz more than a common friend but it is everything..a person whom we will share anything together..anytime..every second...lotsa moments..either sad..or happy..laugh..etc... i cant deny dat 2 be single is wOw!!..lots of fun! enjoy wit fwenz..laughing, goSsiping (esp wit Manje..we cn talk n gossiping for 5 hours non-stop!! ahah! she's my girlfwenz..n i luv her so much~)... but..to be wit sum1 yg lg special..is evrything..complete..n we learn about..LOYAL (the only 1,no one else)..TRUST (same goes to friends)..LOVE..POSSESSION (Aaaaa!! no one cn tke him frm me!! i mean it!!)..JEALOUSY (even with his bestfwenz or his adik..haihh)..COMMITMENT (tbe2 tingat farah esah ngn pkwe lame die..)...etc... a lots act..every single thing we can notice n learn, how to cope, how to solve,what to do,etc...yea..evrything..and it will make us more mature than b4 (for me,yes..) =)

Nothing to do nw..only..emmmm...facebook-ing..Ym...readers digest online..cnn.com.. Suddenly i saw a new cmment at my wall and he said.."I can't wait,i can't wait"...so i replied to his wallpost..i said.."next month?" and he said.."dat's apart.."..meaning..there must be sumthng else..so i said.."final exam?"..and he said..ade lg dkat..n it made me wondered..alryt! juz let it go even i still keep wondering...curious??yeaa..4 sure! and we hv a 2-hours cnversation tonight..roughly nyee..mcm dialog kt bwh ni..

FieQa : nak tido pukul bpe ni?

Him : b4 12..

FieQa : alryt..now 11.54 p.m...n we hv 6 minutes more..jgn bgun lmbt esok..

Him : your time same dgn kt sni..=) esok if fqa bgun awl,kjutkn ye..

FieQa : okay...3 minutes more...

And i keep counting d minutes!! till "2 minutes more...1 minute more" than...i got a call n i picked up..

FieQa : Hai...

Him : Hey..wht r u doin'?

FieQa : ntg pun..tgh..(xsmpat abis ckp lg)

Him : Dkat ur wall td afif ade tulis "I can't wait,i can't wait" Act,saying both of them carry the same thing. M waiting for this one particular day and the day is today. 14th of June 2009...bla..bla..

(and m blurr act..seems d time stop 4 awhile)

tik tok...

tik tok..

tik tok..

Erkk..the 'text' was quite long..ngeh3...=p when he said "Dear,would u be my couple from this day onwards?Couple for the rest of my life and i promise i'll tke a good care of you"..and m speechless! and keep smiling... i replied.."Yes..(wit a big smile on my face)".. he said thnk you n he felt sooOoo nervous!! Hahaha....till nw i still can laugh out loud when i remembered hw he approached me dat nite at 12.. He asked me y he chose 14th of June (146)..i said i dunno... and....he told me...he hoped, 14th of June will be the day for both of us to remember bile da bsar nnt...146-I love AfiQah...the numbers represent the words..seriously m speechless again n...awww..how sweet...i never think bout dat!!

Now i knw y he said.."I can't wait,i can't wait.." =) he made my day..not only my day,but my life...thanx a lot dear..i luv u soOo muchy2!! and..'HIM' is Tun Afif Tun Rafaee...=)